I just want to go back to live with my family and friends... I find no reason as to why I should sacrifice all their love and care to live in the US... when I went to India past December, I had a nice time with my family... missed all the good old days... but most importantly I felt that my family needed me.. my grandma is very sick and old... my parents keep falling ill and even my uncles and aunts keep falling ill... I feel like I have to be there for them... to help them when they grow old... also I feel helpless when it comes to guiding my brothers, sisters and cousins...felt bad that I couldn't attend my cousins' weddings... that trip definitely convinced me to make the move...
I miss my parents, relatives, friends, Coimbatore, Chennai, India... I miss my mom's food... and everything that I experienced growing up in India... I have a feeling that if I stayed in the US any longer, I would regret it for the rest of my life... I also feel that moving to India might solve my marital problems... maybe having a support structure might keep us occupied and life better lives...
apart from personal factors.. I also feel very constrained living in the US.. its very difficult to start a business, which is what I always wanted to do in the long run... going back to India will give me the flexibility to manage a business while still working... my current plan is to start backpacking hostels in India.. first targets are Kochi and Madurai...
there is also this huge list of things I wanna do after going to India... practice yoga.. learn unicycling... continue learning spanish... start a Keep Kovai Klean or Keep Chennai Clean NGO.... get into public service - potentially through politics.... watch a Sachin game live... watch Ilayaraja concert live... eat at Anjappar... travel all around India... travel all around the world...
my mind is already in India.. May can't come sooner....
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